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Here's a pic of 2 F-16s after landing and engine shutdown checks.
On the left is me. Right is my wingman.. haha..
This simulation is also used to train real life F-16 pilots. =)
thanks nick..

somehow..
my instincts still tell me that you're troubled..
and dun want to tell me..
becus i might not understand?
am i wrong?...
confused..



covered T2 and budget terminal today..
finally.. haha..
budget terminal was like.. 15 mins only? =.= dam small..
had a real great stomachache at the budget terminal
endured all the way till it end.. =.=

my flight is coming soon,
gotta start reading up on my engine checks..

lol tired..
gonna take a rest =)



went airport early in the morning..
covered the bodies of T1 and T3 transit
pretty tough..
gotta memorise stuffs in addition to my plane checks..
way to go haha..

there's always a place
if you wan to let things out..
here =)
if you wan..

smile
=)




Me in F-16 Cockpit! =)
My future cockpit.





great day today!
went syfc at 10 to assemble before sending us to paya lebar airbase..
already a little tired on the way there.. haha..
wow.. so many so many courses were there... think there's at least like 6 courses there..


lots of planes there..
so dam cool haha..
for once, I manage to enjoy myself without any worries at all..
and feel the heat from the sun;
and hear the loud booming pride from the exhaust of the fighter jets;
completely cool man..

met nick, and thanks buddy.. for the simulator..
will return you after i installed it =)


met wesley; sue ann and chee kit..
thx sue ann, for cumming today.. ^^
though i know that it's tiring and perhaps a little boring after the airshow.. haha..
lol wesley... go fly more simulators =.= haha... train more, everytime say wan thrash me..
see today ur skills ah... haiz.... haha xD


We sat in aircrafts like the F-16s and the F-5s haha... pretty cramped inside.. surprisingly haha..

Here are some pics =)
enjoy..




Student Seat: Wesley
Instructor Seat: Me

*what's with that look anyway? =.= looks like a horny bastard hehe*


Chee Kit! =) *He said he's worried about his results =.= *


Backview of an F-5. Flaps down.


F-5 taxying


2 F-16s on the left, 2 F-5s on the right.
and the 4 ground crews in position.



Black Knights Exhaust. Wow that's really big..


Black Knights F-16 Jet.


My future jet =)



went syfc;
had a blank out.. kept referring to book..
studied so hard.. but somehow..
i forgotten everything when infront of the simulator...
fking disappointed.. zzz..
wtf is wrong with me..

went to celebrate dawn's bday;
fun "quiz" in the early stage,
went to eat jack's place...
had so much laughs there...
cheered up haha...

Happy birthday DAWN!




yawns very tired...
got to go airport at 9am for making of pass tmrw...
then to syfc at 2.45 and flight sim till 3.45pm...
then gotta rush to elsewhere again...

lol.. busy day tmrw... finally..
away from being cooped up at home..
Time for me to have a rest..

wish me lucks for tmrw..
Hope nothing will go wrong tomorrow..
and that it will be Mr Hi taking me...
dun wanna get scolding by other instructors before my first flight...




That's the Piper Warrior flying among the skies
I'll be in it ;
on 2nd sept

See the syfc logo on the vertical stabiliser?
looks like an arrow
haha..



Been playing games at home..
Studying at home..
'Mental flying' at home..
Teaching my bro chemistry at home..
zzz..

pls tell me when the test results have released..
I don't wan to check for the results anymore..

Don't matter.
Great song =)
Akon tops my playlist.



another day has passed...
and the results are not yet released.. hope they won't lol..
fat hope..zz..

recovered almost fully, left abit of sorethroat;
irritating..

studied lots of checks today,
memorised lots, left r/t procedures and shutdown checks..
man it's really getting into my head..
even when i bathe i go through all the checks..
even when i sleep.. oh well..

to stay in syfc is a matter of pacing and consistency;
and alot on time management..
got to cope with many things, and I got to cope them all...
make me feel really grownup and all..
lots of responsibility and committment..

I will get my ppl..
watch me..
I will, can and must..
and this time..
I must succeed..




raining the whole day..

not afraid of the fever pain and bodyache,
jst hate sorethroat.. irritating..

finally did some real good progress on my flying haha..
memorised pre start checks, starting checks..
left after start checks and the r/t procedures..
haha..

First flight on 2nd Sept.
Wish me all the best :)
Course 162, buck up dudes..

Realised I haven give a brief introduction about my course mates..
hmm.. well basically.. i dunno if this is fate.. but..
somehow the class i go always horny one =.=

We've got several superheros in my course..
We've got the batman, the superman.. and some really lame ppl who kept shooting rubberbands at the whiteboard =.=

My course is very "humourous"..
So much for batman to say "steering wheel" during taxying across the runway
instead of "control column".. haha..
that made us laugh alot lol..

We've got a "superstar" haha =p yea he's always with me in my ppt flights..
he's called superstar becuz he got dyed hair haha.. but he had toned down alot tho..
yea u guys saw him every PEEE lecture lesson haha..

well yep, there're the hardworking dudes, like me and skylark 98 =)
I guess this will do? =)

Semper Fi,
W.J. Kitson

P.S. And it's err... "Cougar", not " Cool gurl" .. ZZZZzzzz....




Not a very good day today..

Cat 1, joyride cancelled for the pending recruits..

feel sad for them..



had flu and sorethroat, lucky i'm not flying today..

the instructor would be dam pissed with me..



finally gotten my 2nd student pilot liscence approved by caas..

haha..



no sch from now till 6 weeks later...

6 weeks without see-ing and talking to you ppl..

my mood gonna rot at home... zzz

sigh.. got to study for syfc..
somehow.. it is really difficult and became some sort of a chore..



hate holidays..
zz got to control my feelings..

mum wants me to go and work..
if not she won't give me money for a month..
but it's like..
i gonna go syfc 3 times a week,
and my flying dates are not fixed.

Since when is there a job with selective days?!
and she's giving me more things to do..

if i don't do them she gonna deduct my money..
wtf.. finding a place to keep my money.

:D zzz..



sigh maybe i shoudn't be posting my troubles on my blog..

Skylark 98:

No matter wat route you take..
as long as you become a commander pilot in the airforce..
It'll be worth it..
really glad to meet you..
of course i wish the best that you and I will complete our ppl
together and get into uni..

dun wanna lose you buddy... haha..

I lost quite a few ppl already..
=)































somewat in a holiday mood..
very tempted to play..
keep playing then studying then playing again...
one last exam.. jst study one more day...
head very pain.. my right brain... zzz..
right eye pain..

i must stay focus.. right ivan? lol...
a pilot's determination...
dun blackout..





haha depression? lol nah.. i'm not..
go read up on the Symptoms more carefully...
i'm not feeling every one of each...
and i dun attempt suicide =.=
i may not have a complete one...
but at least i've got half..
nvm if you dun understand..

i'm not as weak as i seem..
i've grown stronger..
jst that i'm trying to cope with life..

pcem..
think it was difficult..
several qns i dunnno how to do..
today after the exam..
see ppl laughing, see them laughing..
but somehow.. i dun feel happiness in the slightest sense..
there's nothing to be happy about.. zzz..




EM... put out my best front of confidence, but it still is very difficult..
hope i get at least a B..

been a long time since i last talked to you..
haha..
i changed alot? i didn't realise..
didn't know i was so full of confidence and pride in the past..
no matter how much i changed..
how quiet i've became..
i'm still me.. dun worry haha...

but maybe it's a gd thing..
maybe i was proud and too confident in the past? this isn't gd mah..
was i very talkative last time?
at least now i'm more quiet.. more to myself..
less noisy and more mature.. after all i'm 17 already..
hope you're good and well too..
nothing happen to me dun worry =)
everything's fine..
maybe the silent me will be better to others..
i'm still smiling aren't i.. haha..


watch a fighterpilot movie today..
and one of the virtues of a fighterpilot
is to be confident..
i'm lacking alot..
and i'm trying hard..
to feel confident...
to keep on smiling =)

thanks..
it feels so long since i've been last cared for..




wanted to complete all my em papers today..
but only did 2..
i thought that as long as i go sch,
i'll be able to concentrate better..
wat the hell is wrong with me..

wanted to study for syfc,
memorise all the checks,
all the r/t procedures..
wanting to impress my instructors..
but i've got no time...

i wanna find back myself...
all the while thinking that drowning myself in work
will help me..
can't i just focus?
i'm really tired,
wanna give up...

I'm jst like a normal stick gently placed vertically on the concrete ground..
i'm falling..
in the past i thought things will get better..
i thought...

trying to cope with everyday life,
one step at a time..
one day by one day..
telling myself that the next day will get better..

sorry troy.. those times you tell me how difficult it is to cope..
finding the best method out of the many methods..
i always thought that it will be easy..
and that as time pass you'll tend to forget..
but then i realised i'm wrong..
i'm feeling all these now..

workload is wearing me down instead of helping me..
it's not the best method..
never tried physical pain before..
hope it will work..
sorry all these times i've never really understand how you feel...
now i do..

fate stop playing me..
don't snatch my life from me..
if you really want,
i'll give it to you..




has been studying the whole day..
got to cope with lots of things...
workload..
memory..
stress..

Cheer up..
dun keep doing work too,
play some games or watch tv.. :)

talk to me if you wan..
though i can't gurantee you will feel better,
but i can take away your boredom..
=)


here's the joke of the day:

A professor at Texas A&M University is giving a lecture on the supernatural.
To get a feel for his audience, he asks:
“How many people here believe in ghosts?”
About 90 students raise their hands.

“Well that’s a good start. Out of those of you who believe in ghosts, do any of you think you’ve ever seen a ghost?”

About 40 students raise their hands.

“That’s really good. I’m really glad you take this seriously. Has anyone here ever talked to a ghost?”

15 students raise their hands.

“That’s a great response.” “Has anyone here ever touched a ghost?”
3 students raise their hands.

“That’s fantastic.” “But let me ask you one question further… Have any of you ever made love to a ghost?”

One student in a flannel shirt and baseball cap way in the back raises his hand.

The professor is astonished. He takes off his glasses, takes a step back, and says,

“Son, all the years I’ve been giving this lecture, no one has ever claimed to have slept with a ghost. You’ve got to come up here and tell us about your experience.”

The redneck student complies with a nod and a grin, and begins to make his way up to the podium.

The professor says, “Well, tell us what it’s like to have sex with a ghost.”

The student replies, “Ghost?!? Sheeyit. From baaack there it sounded like you said ‘goats!’”.





had syfc exam today haha...
tested on airlaw, aircraft systems and radiotelephony..
=)
really tough, but guess i did well? haha =)

yea thank you ppl for sending me smses to wish me happy birthday,
even tho i was having the exam and a detailed aircraft check then..
was cat 1 today... possible lightning strike, can't even go to the aprons to check the aircrafts out, till very late.. haha..

thanks nick.. hope you're doing really well and good =)




here it is haha..



why do i keep getting cake smashed in my face?
and all are black forest lol... haha...
wanna say thanks guys =) really appreciate alot haha... =p


lots of tension..
lots of stress..
lots of worries..

can anyone pls find a way out for me..
the happiness in me is fading away...
trying to hold on to it..
but the more i think,
the worst it gets..

dun wanna life to be so hard too..
so i'm trying..
hard..

sigh i shouldn't be thinking about all these isn't it?
after all.. i'm gonna be 17 tonight.. =(

















pcem-ed the whole day today..
finally i'm starting to learn and understand..
glad bout my progress, but not satisfied still..
there's still an 80% of me getting kicked from pcem..
if that really happens..
i'll regret alot..

so i'm trying my best to do lots of qns,
to make up for my past laziness,
to forget..
to numb...
to drown myself in work..

Gonna have my first flight sim tmrw! (=
finally after waiting for so long..
arron, dun give up..
fierce instructor = high chance for getting ppl..
VERY fierce instructor = CONFIRM get ppl
just bear that in mind =) and stay hard..
seems like we're facing similar things..
2 of a kind =p
glad to know you..
really...



pcem..
T_T

where's my listening soul..
a big wide smile on my mask...



sigh haven met my flying instructor yet.. zzz...
Squad not even out on the ops room board..

some easy and detailed pre flight brief today..
roll yaw pitch being the main details...
Ground exams on sat omg, and haven study for it yet..
wanting to study for it, but yet still i dunno what to study..
no info given about the exam... zzz...

Need help for pcem..
think i will be kicked after this exam =(
i've realised my mistakes in the past...
regret not putting in effort..
sigh..





tmrw will be my preflight brief by my unknown flying instructor...
hopefully my flying instructor will be someone fierce and strict..
I really want to get my ppl..

So if any of you wanna switch flying instructor with me,
I'll GLADLY do so =)
even if i have to be scolded everyday,
get screwed up by him everyday.. i dun mind =)

hope i'll be able to get listed for my flight sim on this fri too =)



freaking tired
emomenphypsy..

starting to break my vow..
promised not to regret..
but i'm starting to regret now..

regretting about
not paying full attention during pcem,
not revising my work after sch,
not putting in effort..
and many more..




whoo! jst finished de lab test...
Did pretty well for E and G outputs, very smoothly done...
then came into L output (supposedly the easiest!)
haha... oh well... then made a crappy careless mistake..
supposed to connect one of the output of a not gate to an input of an or gate,
but i connected it from an input of the not gate instead.. zz haha..
at the last min, finally got it done xD haha.. phew man. =)
wanted to give up, but i didn't =)



Reading the meant hidden




Just had lunch with my mum..
For the first time..

and as though we've paused the time,
for once,
she talked to me about
her life,
my dad,
their history...

then I realised,
that sometimes,
I was too occupied with my life to understand them..
All these times, I didn't really appreciate their stories,
but only until today when i'm facing an emotional crisis,
then i truely understand..

truely enlightening,
and sad..
Somehow, I finally understand what's going on inside and out
my head..
Wrong choices sometimes really do affect our lives,
so here we are on earth,
with a mission..
to make another decision to right the wrongs..





vomitted... my head hurts...

all on a special day...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Tell me bout you



Cinderella's story:

Fairy tales don't come true,
but dreams do...

So change your fairy tales into dreams,
and let your dreams take flight
=)





Rainy day,
the smell of heaven tears...

The season of comfort,
relaxation..

The promise of eternal luxury,
a longed one...
=)



Mountains mountained,

fountains fountained.

In what name do I call myself?

The burning stream,

rolling down the fair land.

At tides high ,

and at times low.

Oh my cherished belief,

where have you gone to?





Did well for autocad.. i hope?
except for a part of the isocircle...
oh well, haha...

Thanks jy =)
although it's been along time since we've chat, it feels as tho I've returned back to sec sch time.. haha...
yea i'm feeling better =) thanks....

Haha, you're the experienced one, so i ought to listen to you right? =p haha
Wish you all the best =)
Hope you and nick stay together forever...
Rmb to invite me to the marriage hor.. haha xD




I'm tired,
I'm stress...

Yet somehow, I don't seem to be doing anything
to improve the situation.

My feelings are like an ac waveform,
positive sat and negative sat at times...

Why am i feeling like this,
I dun understand myself too....
listening to songs, hoping to relieve myself..
yet the more i listen, the more i return to the past

Angry with myself..
Why am i feeling like this?
I'm suppose to concentrate on my exam
and on syfc...
C'mon...
Am i breaking down?


Dude you're not alone... Sometimes it takes more than just your pair of hands to clap...
You need her hands to clap yours for things to work out..
This feeling sucks yea i know...
Stay hard, we're facing it together. We're in the same boat...
Jst stay hard, really, stay hard...
Focus on our PPL
Dun Give Up





R/T Procedure
"Skylark 80, departing"
"Paya Lebar approach, Skylark 80, 2POB, entering Area Alpha at 4000ft"
many more..
stress stress... Trying to rmb all of them...

Exterior checks, cockpit checks...
Staying real hard..
It's really tough to sustain in syfc..

High expectations, school exams, projects and many more...
Got to cope with everything..

Greater responsibilities I hold now,
to train me for more in the future...

Birthday luck for my ground exams,
=)
To be as successful as you woot.