Wednesday, August 20, 2008
11:33 PM
waiting for a miracle...
haha depression? lol nah.. i'm not..
go read up on the
Symptoms more carefully...
i'm not feeling every one of each...
and i dun attempt suicide =.=
i may not have a complete one...
but at least i've got half..
nvm if you dun understand..
i'm not as weak as i seem..
i've grown stronger..
jst that i'm trying to cope with life..
pcem..
think it was difficult..
several qns i dunnno how to do..
today after the exam..
see ppl laughing, see them laughing..
but somehow.. i dun feel happiness in the slightest sense..
there's nothing to be happy about.. zzz..
wishing i can be like them
all those things i told you today..
are really from the bottom of my heart..
i may be joking most of the time..
but there are some impt times when i'm really serious..
becuz i dun wan you to commit the same mistakes i did..
you don't know how i feel..
the pain hurled upon you..
don't walk in my footsteps,
because they're not worth walking..
Looking at successful people..
then comparing to myself..
feel a large gap away from them..
in the past, i've been constantly looking for solutions..
to solve problems..
now.. it seems that no matter how hard i try...
it will not be solved..
and i'm wearing down..
thought i would be able to take it in the past..
but i'm wrong..
missing dpa times..
if only i can turn back time..
i wouldn't have committed those mistakes..
changed and will never do them again...
never in my life..
have never given up on life..
dont want to..
Skylark 98;
how did you manage to let things go..
Need someone to guide me through the dark tunnel..
waiting for a miracle;
to change my life;
to bring me out of these sad periods
as
P1I7L5O3TC
W. J. Kitson