Monday, August 18, 2008
9:01 PM
wanted to complete all my em papers today..
but only did 2..
i thought that as long as i go sch,
i'll be able to concentrate better..
wat the hell is wrong with me..
wanted to study for syfc,
memorise all the checks,
all the r/t procedures..
wanting to impress my instructors..
but i've got no time...
i wanna find back myself...
all the while thinking that drowning myself in work
will help me..
can't i just focus?
i'm really tired,
wanna give up...
I'm jst like a normal stick gently placed vertically on the concrete ground..
i'm falling..
in the past i thought things will get better..
i thought...
trying to cope with everyday life,
one step at a time..
one day by one day..
telling myself that the next day will get better..
sorry troy.. those times you tell me how difficult it is to cope..
finding the best method out of the many methods..
i always thought that it will be easy..
and that as time pass you'll tend to forget..
but then i realised i'm wrong..
i'm feeling all these now..
workload is wearing me down instead of helping me..
it's not the best method..
never tried physical pain before..
hope it will work..
sorry all these times i've never really understand how you feel...
now i do..
fate stop playing me..
don't snatch my life from me..
if you really want,
i'll give it to you..
everything's
P1I7L5O3TC
W. J. Kitson