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CT-4E or Piper Warrior???
haven't decide yet..
there's gd things and bad things on the CT-4E..
It's an acrobatic plane and can withstand more Gs..fly faster, turn faster, and it's something like fighterjets canopy and joystick-kind instead of the control column on the pipers.
and the pilots get to wear helmets! okay maybe it's jst something new to me that's why i'm so facinated, but if there's only 1 CT-4E available and easily spoiled.. well, we'll see when the time comes..

yea i'm more of getting ready for the flight rather than worried.. but man, i hope ops plan me for more flights per week, i need to quicken my progress! my mates are catching up with me zzz....
plan me more.. and crap, I REALLY DO HATE RAIN ALOT! dammit, hope it stops raining and i can go for my flight and COMPLETE it and get at a 6, if not a 5.. man i really really really want a 6 dam badly... 2 sorties left, i must get a 6.. I must!



I dunno what i'm worrying for..
I'm worried for loads of things, from flying, to CYA...

I'm extremely worried that I can't get on to phase 2, although people have been telling me that i'll be able to make it, why jst don't I feel confident enough? It's not as though I did not prepare for my flight or too lazy to put in any effort. I've put in dam lots of efforts and yet somehow, i'm lacing confidence.. I feel as though all eyes are on me, from flying instructors to friends.. I don't want to let anyone down, and especially myself. I can't let myself down, I have to pass it, I have to get though it.. I must..

Haha, i can do it... I know i can and i will..

thanks arron =)



CX/WX zz... flight cancelled.
Not cat 1, but IMC holds take-off..
dam it, went thru the procedures over and over in my head, only to have the flight postponed..
ah well nvm, at least there'll be some clean stall procedures to learn tmrw.

rushing to catch you =)
I want my lunch.. :D!




gonna fly climb and descend tmrw.
been going thru the procedures over and over again in my mind till i got it muscle memory..
Must get a 6 tmrw, if not a minimum of 5.
I must.
No lower than that.

I'm really facinated by the CT-4E, and I really want to fly it.
but I want my own flying instructor to teach me too..
It's a much manoeuvrable plane, maybe i'll consider taking it up if i'm really offered it.
It's the closest kind of plane that's pretty much like the fighter jets in the airforce.

I really hope you'll stay on and fight hard. I know the feeling isn't gd.
but pls, dun get ur dreams down too. At least not becuz of a few words.
come on, stand up for ur dreams.. Don't get beaten down.
you're the one who said to live with the airforce spirit, a fighter kind.
Give it one more shot. I have faith in you.
Don't let me down, don't let yourself down.
You can do it. Just tell yourself that.







Beautiful but a rough flight today..
Much turbulance everywhere, even at 2500 feet!
My flying instructor said it's disgusting.. lol haha.. i agree..
Managed to cover 2 sorties in one flight =)
and get 2 fives for the sorties..

Today was a really gd and fun day! =)




gonna fly tmrw.. and i'm feeling pretty nervous..
so i'm writing now to ease off some tensions... i hope =)

well, someone of you asked me how's life like in syfc and stuffs..
haha.. hmm..
it's a place of dreams, but not the flower scenery or beautiful stuffs like this..
It's where people put in loads of effort to get their dreams moving in the right flight path..
A place of high discipline and determination.. In there, you've only got yourself and your squadmates to depend on, but mainly ( round 80%) on yourself..
Very seldom will you have a flying instructor spoon-feeding you like we were in secondary schools.

Planes will keep taking off and landing every few moments, during the 4 waves.
so safety is extremely important. A negligence on your part might get you out of syfc.
Lots of preparations need to be done before your flight, and a minimum of 8 hours of sleep.
you won't want to go up there sleepy-headed and unprepared. There is a heavy price to pay for it, trust me..

As for the scoldings.. haha well.. everyone will receive it.. it's jst sooner or later..
But no matter what, always bear in mind they scold you so that you'll improve and and change for the better.. And they will push you the extra mile if you're good and show some really good potential =)
Life's tough in there, but airforce gonna be much tougher.
Lot's of checks, from on-ground checks to in-flight checks, it's pretty difficult to memmorise in the start.. But there's a pattern to it, so yea =) afterawhile things will start to get better..
and till your checks become 2nd nature, be sure to keep on reading and do some mental flying or run through the checklist in ur mind.

One thing i feel is that you need to enter your plane feeling confident. You can't enter the plane feeling all emotional and down. There's no time to be emotional when you're in the airbase, whether in plane or on grounds.
So a kind and goodwill advice from me, dun listen to sad and emotional music before your flight, or the day before..
When you enter the airbase, be sure to leave all ur worries and sadness, dun care wat kind of sad feelings, leave it at the entrance, and after ur flight and your good flying results, you can then leave the airbase and collect ur feelings on the way too..
=)

alrite back to studying for tmrw's flight..
97
Must get on to phase 2.



Things are getting down again..
buddies are getting into the rough and possible violence..
no matter what..
hope we stay together as a good whole united squad guys..
we've to spent almost all our effort and time to attain our ppl,
no time to do other things..

rmb the one that brought you up on ur feet,
who pulled you away to goodness =)
she's done alot from what you've told me =)

I still need some time..
i'm not too sure myself too..
we'll see yea? haha..
from what i see, there's lots of circumstances and situations that don't allow so..
maybe i'm too.. pessimistic... haha..
but we'll see..


gdluck for tues for those flying too..
gotta do fuel drain... zzzz hate 1st andd 3rd wave..
one of the most demanding and difficult and major exercise..




Alaska - Auroras Borealis

will it come true?
as i wish among the northern lights,
that I will be able to accomplish it

Iceland - Auroras Borealis

Far too beautiful =)

Climbing & decending,
seems rather procedural..
gotta memorise them.

Getting a new job soon,
in the airport lol!
jst waiting for 98 to clear the go and we'll be on our way..

2 jobs and flying, nice experience i'm gonna have,
at least i'll be with my buddy haha..
these will keep me away from my laptop and protect my eyes lol..
make me feel more responsible and all grown up like a working adult haha..

been away from sch life for so long,
can't really imagine when i'm back to sch life haha..
when hols jst started, dun really like it..
but now i'm pretty much get used to it,
able to study for flights, go for flights,
and go out and enjoy with my pals which i couldn't during schooling..





welcome 163
haha.. taught sim 1..
boring, same old thing..
but it helps me too.. so why not?
haha..

wait till pika enter, gonna make him suffer haha..
went with 98 to eat, play and relax at whitesand..
felt as tho already in airforce lol..
study so hard, then fly so hard, then come out to relax..

saw someone whom i shouldn't..
but that's fate, too bad.. haha..



got a 5..
though had some sections i got 4..
taxy-ed too fast, especially when turning..
I must change..



Gdluck for tmrw.
Must get at least a 6, if not a 5.
Skylark Niner-Seven



It's not how many steps u take.
It's how far a step you take.



you're not alone woot, i'll most prob be going there to study for a yr or two to complete my training. haha.. you're staying there for 8 yrs man, do come back sometimes too.. I will fly there regularly to see you too.. haha.. yea you're right buddy..

gdluck for ur promos both of you, dun wanna see any of you fail or anything, whether for flying or for the promos.. =)



Ptt flight tmrw late.
Going early though..

The feeling's like doing aircraft checks over and over again, but can't fly it.



one day of resting after flying feels really great..
going back for extra ppt flying with 98 again tmrw..
got to study hard for airex: Area familiarisation and landmarks..

cbb with the result of my results..
=)



Flying among the clouds,
flying above the clouds,
is far too beautiful..
but up there, it's not about the scenery,
but about the flying...

Got scolded though, at the starting part,
was very clumsy in the beginning.
and crap bent my flying glasses..
got to get a new one again...
sry pris, se and sher..
spoiled it on first day of flight...
zzz..

got a pretty good score in the end,
and he's impressed with me,
and my checks..
going to increase my momentum,
not satisfied with score though..
must do better..

tired, flew for around 5 hours including ppt flights..
nap..







Tmrw's flight sortie 1 at 8.40am..
Hope it doesn't rain..

Gdluck for those who are flying too,
as well as those who are having flight sim 2.

Hope I'll fly with my primary flying instructor.

Tired.. nap..



Going through the tons of procedures.
Somehow it isn't as difficult as I first thought so..
haha...


"You will be remembered most, not from your accompolishments in life, but for how well you lived and how much love you carried in your heart. " - One Hour To Live

"You're the reason I would die, and you became my reason to live" - One Hour To Live

Looking at others,
can't help but envy,
a thought;
a reflection;
then back to reality,
which I will change.



SYFC:

woke up so early in the morning..
had difficulty opening my eyes lol..
even when on the way to syfc LOL..
departure and rejoin procedures wasn't so complicated,
jst that everything was all taught at one time...
and altho we had round 3 times of departure and rejoin procedures,
it's difficult to get them all in the head..
BUT i'll get them all in my head.

Then had aircraft external self checks,
but no instructor was indicated nor was the time; on the timetable..
thus can't go out to the hangar to do the checks.
ZZZ had 1 hr and 45 mins of free time, including lunch haha..
went to sim rm and the WHOLE of 162 went in too..
watched round 20 or 30 times of repeated landing attempts xD
lol picked up some really really valuable skills from it.. lol learning jst by watching? =p it helps..

and FINALLY the alumnis brought us to do the aircraft external self checks, cockpit safety checks and pre-start checks.
lol, everything ran rather smoothly as i do the checks, such that the alumni asked if i memorised them LOL! then he told me to keep quiet and let others try xD oh man lol.. zzz..

then went back to sim rm and perform one almost perfect landing.
I could have done better by landing at round 2-4 knots slower, and it would have been perfect.
then requested to do everything from cockpit safety checks to take off under the watchful eye of an alumni..
had a few blankouts during some of the procedures, but i know that it's normal..
I must overcome it. i have to. I must do everything so perfectly that my flying instructor will be DAM impressed.

feeling abit happy about my effort,
but i'm willing to help anyone who might need my little guidance =)
sorry, not that i'm boasting bout what I've done,
but jst wanted to show the alumni that I've done it correctly and show it to myself too.
I'm jst being very determined. not proud..
dun get the wrong idea.

glad for myself =)

then had CYA afterwards.
had fun here and there..
then had many opportunities to talk to foreigners and help them out.

had this case, where this woman came to me and said she can't find her brother.
made an announcement but still can't find her brother.
she was really worried, and she took out the stuffs she bought to distract herself..
then she went to walk about, but later she came back..
this time, her face was really.. sad? pissed off?
her expression was really.. solemn..
guess wat? she lost her wallet, her money, identification stuffs too?

my god.. really really wanted to help her, but there's not much I can do..
then i hate myself alot.. for not being to help her at all.
except some motherhood statements like " do u rmb where u last seen ur wallet?"
felt dam useless.. wanted to go find her bro with her, but I'm not sure how to go about doing it.
wanted to go find her wallet for her, but there's a high chance that someone else might have taken it already..

felt really sad for her, and angry with myself.
first time feeling totally useless,
want to help but can't.

I sincerely pray for her to find her brother as soon as possible,
and that none of the impt documents were lost in the wallet too..

A place of great insights that gave me strong feelings.
A job that gave me great responsibilities;
that let me exercise my responsibilities.



have got syfc from 9-5 tmrw,
and from 5.30 till round 10 or 11 have got CYA..

lol.. sat is finished..

oh man, haven study airlines codes..
haven really explored the max guide..
It's either laptop, or syfc notes... haha...
need to study for cya soon.. lol..



Jst came back from the talk..

Highly inspirational speech..
and saw many photographs,
jst soo beautiful and nice..
jst like the kinds of scenery I've always yearned to see..


It's not like some kind of ice place with nth else...
the clouds there, are really low and beautiful..
the frozen sea with many floating ice..
and there's one with a sunrise..
the sun looks so big and nice..


Here's some pics..









Midnight in Antarctica..

haha.. real nice....

Everyone can do a part to help prevent ozone depletion..
Not jst the normal things to decrease usage of CFCs..

if you're thinking how an individual can help?
think abt it. It's not a matter of doing it alone.
It's about influencing others to do it,
and the idea is there perfectly clear in their minds.
when the whole nation is doing it, and the government supports it,
that's how an individual can do to help prevent ozone depletion..

It's about a spark to get the idea rolling...




Leaving for nyp talk later.. have to meet at 3 at yio chu kang mrt.. lol..
the talk is abt a Canadian lady who have travelled to antartica...
sounds pretty cool haha =)





Before the exams, wanted the hols. Too stressful..
After the exams, don't want the hols. Too boring..

Conclusion: I prefer the exams.


CYA coming round the corner, and not yet studied for the places and transfer counters.
Will be getting our erm.. splendid-colour vest, and our walkies.
Haha, will look through them.. soon i hope..
and the gurls got to put on makeup, lipsticks at the minimum..
aww haha too bad, dun wan also have to put.

Gdluck for your flight nick, I know you're flying solo now.
Safe landing, dry conditions, no restriction.

Skylark 98, gdluck for your first flight tmrw.
Rmb ur external checks and cockpit safety checks.
It's compulsory. Anything beyond that, jst perform them well and impress him.
Dun get stun when he asked you qns.
All the best.





Crap.. Cat 1 again, possible lightning strike..
Flight cancelled..
was disappointed at first, having to come prepared so hard but not fly..
but after having the pre-flight briefing,
I think it was worth it to study so hard..

Managed to answer all his questions,
think i impressed him =)
and taught my friend to use the comms control box infront of him LOL...

Skylark 96, yea you're right..
jst tahan him for 1 yr 1 month haha..
he might be those slack kind on grounds, but in the air it's another different story..
heard he's dam strict up in the air.. so yea, learn well from him, fly well..
dun commit mistakes which he told you not to lol...
that would be called stupid mistakes,
which then of course those f words from him might be reserved for you
haha..

My instructor is nice and detailed,
but I know too that he's very strict up in the air..
haha, hope I get to fly soon..
haven impress him as much as i wan to..





half an hour till i leave for flying..
feeling nervous again,
went through the entire procedures,
over and over again..

I will perform beyond my capabilities today.
I must..

Safe flight



feeling nervous for tmrw lol..
what if I forgotten the procedures tmrw?
Some say he's nice,
some say he's fierce..
Let's see what i'll say tmrw...
hope my effort dun go to waste..

even when i play games i keep thinking about the procedures..
can't play in peace lol..
all the best for me i guess?

Haha dun worry KJ, I won't crash ur plane tmrw lol =.=
your flight's at 4.35, mine's at 4.30..
ur's from changi airport mine's from seletar...
haha yea if you see me up in the sky give me a wave man =)
Happy flight for those going Cambodia tmrw!
Pika, dun go there positive satuation lol.. =p
help the people, not look and smile at urself lol.
xD



tmrw's my flight omg..
I thought it was supposed to be from 4th sept onwards..
Our aircraft checks self practise is supposed to be on last sat,
but it got postponed..
and tmrw i'm gonna get graded for it =.=

zzz... must memorise the procedures!



gonna live my own life.
makes me feel better.
at least I possess something..
my life; my memories,
sth you can't take away from me..
not even time..



gonna go crazy at home already..
mum's forcing me to study for next sem modules.
WTF RESULTS NOT EVEN OUT AND WANT ME TO STUDY FOR NXT SEM!
LIKE I KNOW WAT TOPICS WE WILL LEARN.

goddamit, yea go ahead and confiscate my laptop.
ever seen someone get bored till crazy?
not going out of house and taking away my laptop?
yea.. for so many reasons, sometimes i wish i'm not me.

you want me to live YOUR dream and NOT MINE.
I'm fking 17, so stop comparing me and other ppl.
They can be a bookworm for all I care,
I got my own life to lead,
and you're always complaining that other ppl are so independent.
THEN STOP TAKING CHARGE.



dull.
someone get me out of this house.
zzz.