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sim 7 tmrw,
got to meet GM on saturday together with rebro..
wonder wat happened..
Thinking about it just makes me wonder lots of stuffs..

study, fly, play.. till exams over..



MST in 5 days, don't feel much..
had other things to worry, things loads more impt.
I feel as though there's something stuck in my heart, but unable to say wat it is..
Going back home to face quarrels and arguments, can't study at all..
Do you know how I feel?



Things going rough for me this sem.. hardly able to take time off for anything else.. And I'm not having sufficient sleep too.. zz.. This sem is complete hell! totally full of formulas for all the major subjects! really want to take a rest.. go on a holiday or something...

Although time's rushing like hell for me, somehow my mind and heart is still able to take it and think bout other stuffs instead.. I dunno wat's wrong with me haha.. (Got to be my mind xD) Sometimes, I feel as though I need someone, the kind who's able to understand wat I'm going through.. I want to depend on someone else, but yet I don't want too. I realised that I'm really a loser who's always depending on others in the past, but flying taught me to be independent, and not feel weak.. Without flying, I think I will go crazy with the world crashing down in me, at certain points of my life.

It's really tough to only have yourself to depend on, and not having true friends beside you. I don't want to depend on others, but I'm starting to feel tired, walking my path on my own. I'll force myself on, becuz that's what I've been and am training for. I really should have hated you isn't it? I wish I had, then.

Today was one of the best flight I've ever flew! =) hahaha, SORT OF landed on my own.. Really really fun haha.. And thanks to my instructor, I was able to experience G force turns! okay maybe it was like around 2-3G, BUT IT'S FUN! haha.. On to circuits next, going to do my best! and rush for CT-4E if I'm capable for it..

Alrite, time to study for MST ( MOST SUCKY TIME)..

"NO PROBLEM, PREPARE CIRCUITS"



wishing you a gd and safe flight tmrw morning..
dun run around in japan, it's really cold there haha..
jst looking at those pics make me really feel like going there too..
take some pics kay? =) and bring me back some snow..
take care..

Going to tengah airbase on the 14th nxt month for F16 Famil Visit! can't wait :D haha.. Something to look forward to and put worries at the back of my mind for now...



Whoo I've completed the first peee tutorials like in... 4 weeks? Finally managed to discipline my mind to get down to study and put other things aside.. Have still got tons of tutorials from DE and Maths which I want to do, but NO IDEA how to do.. zzz.. With much willpower I will need to tame my heart for the nxt few weeks.. and things aren't going any better to have my home as a home.. Hate studying at home!

Went for compass test with batman, nyang and shiok.. was really muscle-straining for my arms and fingers since I gripped the joystick real hard to have absolute control and careful manoeuvring. Lots of thinking and multi tasking.. Mental calculations and many stuffs at once.. Well, I'm pretty happy of my performance today though..

It's time to show some pilot's grit determination!



Should I be feeling this?
Thought I'll be able to live past that stage of life..
damn starting to hate all these..
the weeks you're going to leave me..
the time I'll spend watching out for any impt news..
the worries you make me go though,
for that few weeks.. haha man i'm silly xD

School started like 5 weeks ago.. and I still have got weeks of work to catch up..
this sucks man..
Exams in 3 weeks.. Not much time..
Gonna start putting my head into the books..

Compass test on thurs, 5 hours whoo!
Way to go!



It's my first time flying with other instructor..
hahaha, different styles of teaching..

Been really busy flying, going for mapas tests, and trying my best to study hard..
Hardly believable that 3 weeks have passed since sch reopened! and another 3 weeks to exams...
zzz I need to catch up with 2 weeks off work!

alrite back to studying.. compass test on thurs... maybe flying on fri.. hmm..

Gdluck for solo POOPS! :D
Praying for you to enter PPL..
=)
Gdluck!