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went to collect my flight suit today, but did not managed to. have to collect it only on tuesday.. argh well..

finally saw my name up on the PPL board! =) but, well.. it's abit too high up instead of the last 5 rows.. today, when I was asked why didn't I enter Ct-4E, i didn't know how to answer.. Am I, not good enough? Did I not hit my instructor's expectations?
I was really happy when I entered PPL, but actually all along, I had a secret desire.. I really wanted to fly the CT-4E.. I wanted to be the best, the best pilot so that I could fly it..

But then, if I would be able fly it, it would mean that my instructor has to be changed too. How would you feel? if you are trained and nurtured for so long by your instructor, but because jst becuz you want to be the best, you have to change ur instructor.. I don't want to disappoint my instructor, neither do I want to disappoint myself. Furthurmore, I can communicate well with my instructor, and I really like him as my primary instructor.

I don't want to disappoint him, so I didn't request for ct-4e today, even tho I was asked to. But, if my instructor offer me, I will take it. I want to be the best, I won't let go of any chance which will get me trained for the best. but maybe I'm not good enough, so he didn't offer me.. but if he does, I will..

I want to get the Best for flying award.. really ambitious aren't I.. I will aim for it, no matter what.