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Bottom of the ocean

It's been in the past for a while
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy
Still miss you, baby
It was real
It was right
But it burned too hot to survive
All that's left is,
All these ashes

Where does the love go
I don't know
When it's all set and done
How could I be losing you forever,
After all the time we spent together
I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you've just become like everything
I'll never find again
At the bottom of the ocean

In a dream, you appear
For a while, you were here
So I keep sleeping,
Just to keep you with me
I'll draw a map,
Connect the dots
With all the memories that I got
What I'm missing,
I'll keep reliving

Where does the love go,
I don't know
When it's all set and done
How could I be losing you forever,
After all the time we spent together
I have to know why I had to lose you
Now you've just become like everything
I'll never find again,
At the bottom of the ocean

(Voice)
This is it
Let go
Breathe

You don't have to love me for me
To baby ever understand
Just know I love the time we both had
And I don't ever want to see you sad
Be happy
And I don't wanna hold you
If you don't wanna tell me you love me babe
Just know I'm gonna have to walk away
I'll be big enough for both of us to say
Be happy

(Voice)
Be happy

The fighter pilot

W.J. Kitson
16 August1991
~~TNPS; GPS; TKSS-TableTennis; DPA-SP-C4~~
SP-DASE/FT/1B/24
SYFC

Work hard, fly hard, play hard, and stay hard.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

8:52 PM

I'll be waiting..

Why are you being cold to me sometimes?
And warm to me at times?
It's like.. we can only have fun and laugh together whenever you're engaging and easy to talk to..
I hope.. that one day we will look at each other and not feel a barrier between us.
Remember the half of my life I have left? I'm losing it soon.. I'm getting all the shit and criticism ever since i entered ct4. I might be kicked out of ct4. I'm losing confidence I've placed in myself.
Can I talk about kede? Can I understand wats happening between you both?
I'm thinking of you everyday. I'm falling without support soon.
Till then, I'll be loving and waiting for you, and brave myself forward. Because that's the last bit of confidence I know I can survive on.

Today's flight was... unexpected.
My taxying has gone haywire again. Oh my god I have absolutely no idea that the right rudder of BPA is so DAM HARD OMG! the left one was much easier to press..
I'm getting all the comments about my height from the instructors.. I might not be able to stay in ct4 much longer.. if I dun prove myself in taxying by nxt conver sortie. I swear it's not my height that's causing my bad taxying.. The right rudder jst like stone... after I turned left, I pressed the right ruddder, and after awhile then the aircraft turn right.

I don't want to let myself down. Don't want to let my instructor down. I must stay on, I must taxy slowly this time, and press right rudder earlier before a right turn. My last chance to make things for my to continue ct4.

My flight in the air was pretty fun.. ALL the Gs were addictive, tho we didn't pull much... I absolutely luv the PFD, something like the HUD haha.. I'm starting to feel the aircraft.. and for flapless I didn't really have to worry much afterall.. I still can see the attitude after rounding up.. like a little less than an inch below the horizon. And having a canopy is so much easier to look around! =) *Not that I don't like the piper* Everything else was managable. Felt the stress jst like when I was flying the first few sorties in piper. But it's managable, and I know I will be able to handle it after a few more flights in it. The only thing which I missed piper is my ex-instructor teaching me and the absolute full feel of the piper. I believe by the time I fly till circuits for the ct4, I will have the same full feel of it too. I have to continue working hard.

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W. J. Kitson