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Had my solo this morning at 0830 in the morning, had dual circuits first, then 1 solo circuit.
Solo was fast though, felt like my first solo haha. This is my second first solo btw.. well, but I rmb being more nervous for my first solo xD

Here's a pic of my solo, when i was backtracking rw03.

vids in fb =)

Here are the pics before and after my attempted solo:

This is me in my beloved CT4E.





























And they are the cruel ppl who are gonna pour stink bombs on me soon =D



Ytd's solo CX, due to Cat 1 lightning risk.. zzz..
Looks as though it's gonna rain, but didn't rain.
Saw what nyang and the rest prepared for me, rotten milk, fermented and decomposed things omg.. I'm gonna be a stink bomb..

But yea, solo should be postponed to sunday I hope. I'm nervous, but I'm ready.
Had CAAS Radiotelephony Exam this morning, then went to apply job at terminal 3 Swensens! =) I don't even need to go for interview! Straight into training nxt week!

Gonna have to juggle lots of things from now on, friends, studies, work, and flying. Stress and more stress, to keep my mind filled.



After my action-filled conversion sorties, after much scoldings and training,
It's my second first-solo tmrw!
A little nervous bout it, it's been so long since my first solo..

After 7 conversions, I'm more confident of my handling, but my landings need improvement.. lots of mental flying..
hope i will stay on, I want to stay on.

I'm feeling so many things at one time. I need to control them all.
Trying to find work, but difficult..
Sch's gonne reopen soon. Should I look forward to?



Had Course 161 & 162 cert giving ceremony today.. The cert looks really nice, met up with my coursemates and ex-coursemates. Felt like the same, as though I'm back in bfc times again.. Never failed to laugh with batman around haha.. Then went "Ang Moh" Kio for movie, lunch and dinner with them. Street fighter doesn't really appeals me afterall.

I can't be my old self anymore, if I want to survive my flights.
I cannot be easily hurt anymore. Maybe I'm too used to my ex-instructor..
I will need toning up for my character.

Being sensitive is not good, got to take it off me.



Got scolded like hell for today's sortie.. Have never get F-ed so many times before..
Feel like shit today zz.. let's see, helmet whacking is next. What more?

I want to vent out but i dun wan to take it out on ppl. Don't vex me.

Hold myself. suffering like a slave. FUCK IT.
























This is one fierce storm seen in syfc today @1700 . Taken in synchronisation from the left hangar to the right hangar.

At the left hangar, you can see that the far left towards Whisky 1, 2 & 3 is raining, and another section of the sky is not raining.

At the mid, the clouds has many different shades of white and grey, somehow the pics make it looks brighter..

At the right hangar it looks darker.

This is one fierce cat. Flying is ceased for 4th wave.



Flight was changed to 1st wave instead of 3rd wave. Beginning of flight was a little bit of a disaster, got scolded as I made my overhead climb to bravo. Mistakes here and there.. I have to revise through my SOP again. Wat a stupid mistake for departure.. zz.

A little scoldings here and there during my flight, but much lesser compared to my departure, many ways to improve still. During rejoin, I requested for High Gs, and thus we did one 5G followed by 2 6Gs . Guess wat, I had G loc for the 5G ! It was like rapid onset, from 1G to 5G is abt 1 to 2 sec. Forgotten to keep my breathing pace even, and next thing i know, I went into "Loss Of Consiousness" (LOC). But the funny thing is that my eyes are opened throughout my G loc, and I could feel my head dropped forward. I tried to force my head up but I became "lazy". Is this G loc or wat? My vision was just a little dark than usual, but I can see clearly still.

Then I requested for more Gs again, and there goes two 6Gs turns, each lasting around 6 seconds each. But I didn't G loc! was really happy! hahaha, I want to test my limit! I want to push more.. man, 9G must be really really tough.. I need to have a stronger willpower. I will need to learn how to lock my muscles too! All i did during the turns was just to focus on breathing quickly and evenly, totally forgot to lock my muscles.. I need guidance on locking muscles!

Can't wait to pull Gs again, how far will my body and mind push my limit?



Went to airport at 6am ytd to send a few my friends off to brunei, checked in at 7.45 and final kisses and gdbyes to them.. Then walked around with sa, explored terminal 3 and she set down for breakfast at popeyes, and mine, in the toilet.. (Stomachache, can't help it xD I ate nothing though lol )

Went back home, watch tv and off again to wild wild wet! Most noticably was the lifeguards. There was so many female lifegaurds, and only a few were men lol. Wonder why haha.. Some of them looked even younger than me.
Then went to play arcade. Tiring day, and had sunburns, but i dun mind, I want to be more tanned! hahaha..

Oh yea and CX on saturday, zzz.. then camped for 4th wave but still can't. Bad weather. But no worries, I'm flying on wed! =) 3rd wave again.. lol...



Finally flying tmrw 3rd wave.. Been like 3 weeks since i flew..
But after exams i feel so bored for this 3 whole weeks.. omg totally living life so meaningless..
Got to find job, zz.. but I need SUPER flexible hours kind! I want to go out.. rotting rotting.. zz..
hope i get more flights! Keep my busy for the hols..

I'm starting to hate holidays. Super meaningless zz..
But this sets me thinking.. After this hols, it's going to be a whole new yr, year 2.
What should I expect? My focus and belief systems ought to change?
Sometimes i hate myself for thinking so far, sets me apart from people. Make me feel unrealistic.

wondering when's my overseas nav flight going to be.. Hope i can go indonesia haha..It's something new for me, can't wait haha..

take care of yourself when you go there..
enjoy yourself, but dun take unnecessary risks.
be safe..

promise me.
and promises are not meant to be broken.



Went for ACE armed forces career experience event at Taka ytd night.. acty didn't intend to go, somehow rilvia managed to convince us to go lol.. We were studying CT4 systems in the morning anyway..

Here's a pic of sth really cute =)